Today

Today is the day Marty McFly went to the future. How crazy is that. Those movies came out more or less before I was born (ok, not the second). But let the preachings of Kanye explain - born in 88. How old is that? Old enough. So anyway, even I can't believe it's finally 4/30/2013. Still perplexed how my present is so different from Marty's future, and not a little let down.

Most Wonderful Time of the Year

Lilac season! Lilies of the valley and lilacs definitely top my list of best smelling blooms. Love that purple

These Days

Not much can make me as bizarrely tickled as reading this blog. Everything those babies do just makes me grin, and just laugh to myself like a crazy person all day. Oh my gosh I want babies! And yes a little bit in the irrational way, but also in the totally normal I can wait and not be one of those drooling feverish girls kindof ways. It's a perpetual mix up in this girls head, but no worries, much as I kindof want to, my obsession is only going as far as picking out which star shaped baby Patagonia snow suit I would buy, not actually buying it. Gahhh oh well. This week has been bizarre. The 21st was the day my grandmother died a year ago, and it has not been easy. I lived with her, and still every day I expect to go downstairs and have her waiting in her room for her breakfast and the daily gossip. It's not easy to even realize that she's gone, much less that she was basically bed-ridden when she finally passed. She was a huge part of my life, for better or for worse, and we had the kind of relationship where if I yelled "Mom!," two people would answer: her and my actual mother. There was no difference for any of us. So it's still just a surreal feeling, but anniversaries always seem to put things into perspective, and the fact that my grandmother isn't downstairs waiting to give me her opinion on how scandalous whatever knee length skirt I'm wearing is, much less that she isn't the wonder-woman who would walk 9 miles as a before breakfast hike up-AND-down pretty much every mountain in Acadia National Park, is hard to bear. I know it's part of life, and dying happens, but why my German GI Jane grandmother. It's a coping kind of week, and I miss her.

The Brothers (Happy and Pouty), Grandma Alma and Me

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"There is a lot of wisdom in a bottle of whiskey."

Jimmy Buffett

Brooks

Buy from Brooks Brothers today til April 19 at midnight EST! If you use your Brooks Platinum Mastercard or the Brooks Card you save 25%, but still 20% for any other form of payment! Also, best of all 4% of every purchase goes towards the Golden Fleece Foundation!

My picks (mostly for next winter... what can I say craving New England, and real winters for some reason, and also sales on sale so why not!):

Cable Cowl Neck Scarf

Polka Dot Blazer

Calfskin and Shearling Ankle Boots

Calfskin, Suede and Shearling Flat Boots

Poignant

Do you believe a man can truly love a woman and constantly betray her? Never mind physically but betray her in his mind, in the very poetry of his soul? Well, it's not easy but men do it all the time.

-Mario Puzo

One More, Just Because

I'm not really a movie person anymore. I used to be able to watch them, but since turning the ripe old age of about 22, sitting still for more than a 40 minute show has become a challenge unless the movie has either a): a certain select group of actors (paging Robert Redford, come on), lots of glitter and/or bright colors, or animals as main characters. Oooh or Kate Hudson. Or Ryan Reynolds. But I digress. Tonight I actually decided to take me time and watch Queen of Versailles. Such a sad movie. At first, it was just more poor little rich kids, but really. That poor woman. She may eat 2000 caviar for kicks even on the foreclosure block (is that a thing? Shouldn't I know?) but what a saint. So sad though. They were living in utter denial. I kindof wanted to cry thinking about people who struggle so hard for their family, and try so hard to put on a normal front when things just aren't right. The Christmas party especially... didn't they realize people knew? Other hand though, the father was soo effing stubborn! Just sell that stupid empty house you have another I mean geez. I admit it, it was kindof a feel sorry for me kind of day, but was really inspired to go give at least two big before bed hugs. Life is too goddam short to be that difficult. Work hard, play hard, and if it's making you miserable let it go. Just let it go. My mantra, now to follow it

On another note: me looking tired and makeup-less, but bangs looking hot as hell! Bangs, not me. Just to make that clear. Finally happy with them, but on seeing them today, my mother's comment was "wow, now all you need are some slutty strappy sandals." Apparently they've become almost sultry, like only hair hanging in your eyes can be woo hoo!

Questions!

These were all the rage on myspace back in the day (JT bring it back!) and I cannot for the life of me figure out why I'm not doing this everyday

• 1. Who was the last person to call you baby/babe? Justin Bieber, over and over again
• 2. Anyone crushing on you? Dubious
• 3. What is your relationship status? He got dibs
• 4. Has anyone ever sang to you? Yes!
• 5. Has anyone ever given you roses? Yes... V-day. My favorites are yellow and pink!
• 6. Who do you text the most? Not big on texting for some reason. But usually other realtors in lieu (word choice!) of email
• 7. First person to text today? Jamiesie?
• 8. What color are your eyes? Green, sometimes blue with yellow apparently
• 9. What is a compliment you receive often? You're actually really pretty when you smile! Backhanded I know. And nice hair
• 10. Who was the last person to say they loved you and when? Boyfriend, about an hour ago
• 11. Do you like your parents? One
• 12. Do you secretly like someone? I'm writing this on the internet, so clearly, ain't got no secrets
• 13. Why did your last relationship end? Wow.
• 14. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone? Boyfriend!
• 15. Who was the last person you kissed? Myself. In the mirror. I like me what can I say
• 16. Do you like funny people or serious people? All mood baby
• 17. What are you listening to? Lots of Movement. Stuff that makes me imagine I'm somewhere else
• 18. Is the last person you kissed older than you? By like a million years
• 19. Are you happy right now? Definitely
• 20. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? Valentino studded gladiators. And a yellow 70's TR6 convertible
• 21. Who makes you happiest right now? Work. Good people
• 22. Do you want to get married & have children one day? With the right person, but definitely kids no matter what. Cannot wait
• 23. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? If he gets lucky
• 24. How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have told you they love you? Most
• 25. Have you ever thought that you were going to marry a person? Yea
• 26. Are you crushing on someone? The boyfriend! I like his hair what can I say
• 27. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Oh yes
• 28. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Unfortunately. But not from being mean
• 29. Are you happier single or in a relationship? I'm happier drinking my feelings
• 30. Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? Yes
• 31. Have you ever had your heart broken? Yess
• 32. Have you ever broken someone's heart? Apparently
• 33. If you could go back in time and change things, would you? Depends. A few kindof trivial things, but I'm a perpetual believer
• 34. Think any of your ex's feel the same? Well, it wouldn't be changing anything for them so who knows!
• 35. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? The very best, even if it doesn't always show
• 36. Have you dated people who were not good to you? Yes. Just yes
• 37. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Nope
• 38. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yep, but does it last?
• 39. Ever been given an engagement ring? Errr?
• 40. Do you want to get married? With the right person, then for sure
• 41. Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? Yep
• 42. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? No. Never
• 43. Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? Does it sound that bad? But if so, then yes yes yes
• 44. Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up with you? Psh. Who would've been that mature to put that into words 
• 45. Would you believe your ex if he said they love you? Irrelevant
• 46. Would you ever date your best male friend? I am...
• 47. If your best friend of the opposite sex went out with someone you knew was wrong for them would you speak up? Usually not til it's too late. Firm believer in minding my own business
• 48. Do you regret any of your relationships? Depends on how many Jameson's. But wouldn't repeat any
• 49. Would you date an ex? I have. Many times over
• 50. Who do you think will actually take the time to read this? Hopefully no body!

Dream

Last night I had the best dream ever. Someone left me with their dog, a big golden named Henry, who fell in love with me. We went sailing together in Hawaii, and he wouldn't let me go anywhere without him, and when I did try, he would wrap his front paws around my leg. We were in a fifties diner together eating lunch when I woke up. Beyond disappointed to not find him sleeping next to my bed.

Changes

The Happy Marriage Is the 'Me' Marriage - NYT

By Tara Parker Pope

“A lasting marriage does not always signal a happy marriage.

Plenty of miserable couples have stayed together for children, religion or other practical reasons.  But for many couples, it’s just not enough to stay together. They want a relationship that is meaningful and satisfying. In short, they want a sustainable marriage.

“The things that make a marriage last have more to do with communication skills, mental health, social support, stress — those are the things that allow it to last or not,” says Arthur Aron, a psychology professor who directs the Interpersonal Relationships Laboratory at the State University of New York at Stony Brook. “But those things don’t necessarily make it meaningful or enjoyable or sustaining to the individual.”

The notion that the best marriages are those that bring satisfaction to the individual may seem counterintuitive. After all, isn’t marriage supposed to be about putting the relationship first?

Not anymore. For centuries, marriage was viewed as an economic and social institution, and the emotional and intellectual needs of the spouses were secondary to the survival of the marriage itself. But in modern relationships, people are looking for a partnership, and they want partners who make their lives more interesting.”

It is interesting to see the different people who have evolved into the "new" way, and those still settling  for the "business deal. As I get older, I see so much more than I expected from when I was younger of the latter type. Full article here 

Food For Thinking About

Poignant